Hey, guess who worked for an hour on a blog post and eventually discarded it? That would be this girl! I am having a hard time believing that I have anything to offer...And that's after just three posts on this here blog. It was much easier when the main purpose of my previous blog was to tell everyone what I was eating every day. My hope for that was that others would find some help or inspiration in their weight loss or health goals. Now, my purpose seems unclear, other than to please my own desire to write and type and ruminate on topics. And then there is the ever present fear that I will present too much of me, and scare everyone off with my crazy.
Oh, wait, are you still reading?! Hot damn!
Maybe if I made one of those lists I see popping up all over...30 Things Happy People Do, 15 Things to Stop Doing, The Top 11 Super Foods...How in the world I could ever profess to know enough about something to list it in such a concise and packaged way, I don't know. I could tell you the Top 5 Things I Step On in My House. Or My Top 3 Worst Things to Clean Up (gross)....Maybe the Top 6 Most Interesting Things I Have Found Under the Couch. Notice those are all under 10 items...It seems exhausting to think of more than 10 things for anything. And I don't think that I have anything figured out enough to actually pass along. How do people do that?!
Why does it seem everybody else has their stuff together and I don't? I've been waiting my whole adult life to feel like I have it all together. I think I am just destined to be the woman who is always a little disheveled. Let me tell you, when I shower and style my hair AND put on makeup and it all looks pretty good, I am ecstatic! But I know within an hour of mingling at a party, or dancing at a wedding, or sitting in a crowded auditorium, my hair will be straight, and I will be sweating like I'm in a sauna so all of my makeup melts off. I don't have magic tools in my purse that I can hop to the bathroom with and 'freshen up'...I would have to start all over. Instead, I pull my hair in to a pony tail, and continue on, realizing I may look a little rough, or crazy even. But I guess that's me....Smooth sometimes, but rough sometimes too. Calm sometimes, but crazy sometimes too.
The one thing I am all of the time, though, is Kari. Well, I don't know...maybe I need to start naming my other personalities...
Girl, we all have crazy! Some may not have the courage to be them and let their crazy show. As you said, be Kari. ..be you :) God blessed the world with you! Own your crazy girl!!
ReplyDeleteI am intrigued by the personalities.
LOL! Thank you, Lynn!
DeleteI enjoyed this Kari! I think most interesting people feel this way and, at the risk of sounding immodest, I believe myself to be interesting and feel this way most of the time. You are interesting and getting the most out of the journey. Can you imagine what would be missed if we weren't always looking around because we don't quite fit?!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Michelle! It would be pretty sad if we didn't find ourselves a little bit interesting...in my opinion anyway! ;)
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